yes you heard right, my family has a famiy scandal as of today I found out! So I'll start from the beginning because the story's kinda long.

So Dad's really into the family history, right. On his side of the family he has traced back our ansectors to the 1600's I think. Mum;s side doesn't go very far because mum doesn't stay in contact with them and to go ack as far s Dad's side you need to talk to relatives and everything.

Anyway today mum and dad went to the state library tolook at the archives and guess what they found... a death certificateof a boy whose has my grandma (mum's mum) as his mother.  This boy was born and died before my grandma and grandpa got together and my mum did not know he existed. Furthermore there is no record of her being married either, which meant he was a bastard which is kinda big back in those days, like the 30's i think he died in. So yeah, I thought it was exciting news!

Oh and my great great great grandpa I think it is has an asian name! I may be part asian! Totally cool!

And I am getting an Irish passport which means I don't need visas to go to Europe and I can work their for as long as I like if I choose to! How cool is that!

In other news Brenda and I went to the Academic advisor today to talk about doing a dual degree in business Arts next year at St Lucia. OMG so easy to do! all we have to do is have an OP higher than 3! (well on last years results at least so it may change to a 3.25 he said). So basically we are in! And beause we are already a uni student we get preference before the grade 12s! Heck yes! So now I have to do 4.5 years of uni. only bad part is that I have to choose only 1 major for business now and I really want to do 2 but oh well. And it also means that I don't have to do my core subjects at Ipswich either! so again Heck yes! Only thing is that we have to go through QTAC again which means another $27 or however much the fee is this year but oh well.

So next year when Brenda and I choose our subjects we are doing the same ones hopefully! We were looking at an ariel veiw of St Lucia today and  is REALLY big even though we have both been there, having everything in 1 buliding with the occasional walk to another like once or twice a week is good now we have to find our way around that mini city but once again oh well.

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100 Truths

001. Name: Caitlin
002. Nickname(s): Catie
003. Status: Single
004. Zodiac sign: Picies (I don't know how to spell it)
005. Male or female: Female

006. Elementary: Sunnybank Hills State School
007. Middle School: -
008. High School: Canterbury College
009. Smart: I get told I am but don't use my intellegence, meh
010. Hair color: I'm a ranga but it's going Brown cause I am in the sun too much
011. Tall or short: average to short
012. Loud or Quiet: Mostly Loud
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans

014. Phone or Camera: Phone, I don't have a camera
015. Health freak: NO, although Nadia is trying to get me to be one
016. Drink or Smoke?: Drink yes, smoke no.
017. Do you have a crush on someone?: sure
018. Eating or Drinking: Drinking
019. Piercing: Ears. Had my ears done but they got infected no matter what I did, I'm like allergic to metal or something
020. Tattoos: Maybe in the right context

FIRSTS:

023. First piercing: Ears
024. First best friend: Timmy (he still lives down the street)
025. First award: In preschool for knowing the most words starting with M
026. First crush: Timmy
027. First pet: Never have actually had a pet but my grandma had a dog called Billy
028. First big vacation: New Zealand when I was in grade 6, we went for a month
030. First big birthday: My 6th at McDonalds, I got 3 of the same barbies

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating: Nothing
050. Drinking: Nothing
052. I'm about to: go have a shower
053. Listening to: Taylor Swift - Mary's Song (Oh My My My)
054. Plans for today: Shower, read, sleep

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids?: Yes
059. Want to get married?: If I find the right person (I was having a conversation with Mum about this today!)
060. Careers: Event Manager or Teacher

WHICH IS BETTER WITH SAMESAMESAME SEX?

068. Lips or eyes: Eyes
070. Shorter or taller?: Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or nice arms: Arms
074. Sensitive or loud: You can be sensitive and be loud, I am, so someone like that
075. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
077. Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant. I get in too much trouble myself

HAVE YOU EVER:

080. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes
081. Ran away from home: Yes, but dad saw me leave so he found me practically straight away
084. Broken someone's heart: Everyone of course 
085. Been arrested: No.
087. Cried when someone died: Yes but only on TV

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself: Depends on the topic but most of the time I do
090. Miracles: Yes
091. Love at first sight: I don't know I haven't experienced it but if I do than I will
092. Heaven: Yes
093. Santa Claus: Yeah he's really cool, he can be at like a thousand places at once
094. Sex on the first date: Nope
095. Kiss on the first date: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. A funny cartoon: Rugrats
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life: Most aspects yes I am but if you were completely happy with life, what would you look forward too?
099. Do you believe in God: Yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag: did it

Just found out that...


Taylor Swift is touring next years and


Avenue Q is coming to brisbane in February!...2010


Am quite happy now!

So my brother got his pre-paid gaming card...

Ok so my phone just said it got a message so I opened it to my inbox and nothing was there! well anything new! and than it happened again! same deal, so if you texted me than sorry but I did not get it!

Anyways yeh he got his game card from the school counciler and now I don't get to use the computer that much! :(

So anyways on Sunday it was so hot so my fam went to Garbo and we walked around throwing christmas present ideas around but didn't buy anything and we saw a movie! Well dad and seven saw the new James Bond movie and mum and I saw Australia! Now I have already seen it but it is still so good! I love the movie SO much and want to see it again!

Than on Tuesday I saw HSM3 again with Alexander and Patrick, on the Big 25m screen at southbank! So good! and it was fun! We saw the movie because Steven wanted to see it but couldn't see it with us on Thursday cause he has raining for his grading for Judo.  So I still loved the movie but it was funny I kept laughing before the joke was made because I could see it coming!

Those guys really are basically my brothers! It is so cool! And Megan, their Mum is another mother! She is really cool as well.  We had an 'arguement on the phone the night before cause we were organising the tri and Aleander asked if she wanted to talk to me and she said nuh, don't waqnt to talk to her so I said the same thing back, so she started carring on about it, all in joke.  It was so funny! but they are moving :( You see they live about a 10 minute walk away from us but they are moving to Woodlands the new estate near school, so that is not cool!

Anyways seeing Nadia tomorrow! Yay, I love her, she's like an older sister to me! even though I am a client to hers and shouldn't really be more but anyways she's like family as well.  And she's going anyay for christmas, so I am going to miss her!

Than at night it is time to see Twilight! YAY! and then I am seeing it at southbank on the 25m screen with Steven Mum and possibly Alexander and Patrick as well!

Anyways later!

Ok so we had this MASSIVE family meeting tonight, not like massive as in lots of people but massive as in what wer are going to be doing in the next 5 years.  It was intense and dad was deadly serious about it.  It was one of those times you sit listen and just nod at the right time, with no expression on your face, INTENSE!

Anyways, you see we own the bank alot of money, ALOT of money (private schooling is not cheap!), like most Australians.  So they are re-financing their loans and what not.  Than they are making a budget and everything, in the hope that they shall be able to save money.  This is also happening because well we want to fix up the house. 

You see Mum has depression and with that comes certain things.  For her it includes something that legally we can't tell anyone about, for there are...risks involved if people find out, which nearly became reality when I was in grade 7.  So only a select handful of people know about it...mainly family.  This risk is why people are not allowed over my house, not even my best friend.   And I know now that my friends shall want to know what it is but I seriously can't tell you, I'm relly sorry but I felt you needed to know why you haven't come over...or at least there is a reason.  PLease don't ask me about it because I can't tell you about it and it is an area in my life I don't like to talk about, it just upsets me.  DO NOT try and figure it out or ask other people about it cause it shall lead to problems, gaurenteed. 

So anyways this problem we have, we are trying to fix and hopefully it shall be fixed over the holidays.  Than when we have saved up enough money, we are going to slowly re-do our house.  Like painting it again and everything! here is an aproximate list of things. 

-Painting the whole house
-getting a new lounge suite
- new TV
-new kitchen appliances
-all new bedrooms
-re-doing the spare room, so that it isn't a storage room anymore, and making it for the kids
-getting a new outdoor seeting

Than after that I am getting a Laptop! YAY!

What is going to happen is that Mum and Dad are going to assess everything and see what is more important, than as we save the money we shall redo it.  I am really excited but it is going to be alot of hard work and shall probably take a couple years but the future looks good.  I think I might stay at home if I get a whole new room, cause it is close to everything, so why not.  And I think this change is good for my family because for so long the focus has been put on Mums depression and stevens ADHD, that we haven't really done anything or progressed, so this is good and should lead to a really happy future!

Anyways I forgot but last night did you guys see the smiley face in the sky? well the moon was the mouth and than Neptune and Jupiter were the eyes, it was pretty cool to see! only happens once every 50 yeaars or so apparently, so that was cool.  Don't have any pictures cause our camera wasn't strong enough but I have memories and thats all that matters. 

Anyways I had a good day, tomorrow I have Nadia, than HSM3 so it should be good as well.  Only problem, Nadia has a chirstmas present for me and I have none for her, I just didn't know what to get her! I chick has everything it seems! Have you seen her bedroom, full of shoes and bags and clothes, too many! Ahh, I hate christmas! too many decisions!

Smile!
Catie

Guess what I did today...I cleaned up all my favourites! Now it doesn't seem that interesting or exciting but it was so much fun! I didn't realise all the things I had book marked that I didn't use and eveerything, except for important things, are in a folder so I know where they are! It feels refreshing!

I got woken up by a phone call this morning! I was in my bed having some kind of dream, I know i was dreaming but the actual dream excapes me...I hate that, anyways and than the home phone started ringing! I waiting for Steven, my brother to answer it but he made no efforts to do so! So I had to get up and it was mum on the phone! 'just ringing to wake you up' If I wasn't so tired I would have screamed! but i didn't, she's lucky!

High School musical tomorrow! Yay! I dont know which screening we are seeing because hannah has to work till 5 so I don't know if we can see the 6:15 screening or have to wait till the 6:55 screening I don't care whih one we see I just want to know (hint hint hannah, i just dont want to desturb you at work) and than next week is twilight and I have know Idea when we are seeing it but I have to catch a bus with alexander to get there cos mum is dong some certificate, so maybe it would be easier if we go at night time again? (hint hint hannah)

Finally no I have not started my room yet but I think I'll go do that now!

Smile
Caitlin!

Today in the mail I got my reference from Miss Cowan my year 12 coordinator, well she use to be.  It is a whole page long! I didn't expect that because you see she writes one for practically the whole grade, so it is probably very generic but I really like it and I'm just tickled pink that she took the time to do it, even though it is part of her job.  I really like it and think it would really help in the future! I might type it up or something if I feel like it. 

I went back to work today, the first time in like a week and a hlaf due to schoolies and speech night and valedictory dinner and such.  It was so funny I walked up to the door, which has a password, that is different for everyone and typed mine in but it wouldn't let me in so I retyped it, than again, than again! The whole time Laurence, one of the supervisers, was watching me and laughing.  Eventually he had to open the door for me and said 'what are you doing caitlin, you broke the door!' So not funny but he found it funny!

Than I went to log onto a computer and it wouldn't let me so I was freaking out! what happened when I was gone? I was going to go to a sup but thought i should try another computer first and...IT WORKED.  I was so happy but for a while there I was seriously worried!

I have 15 hours at work this week, the max you can get but only nine nexy week, the min you can get.  It is really annoying that they do that because it is near impossible to make a budget when my income changes so much! I am thinking I am going to do some extra shifts, I hope. 

Since coming back from schoolies I have literally done nothing! I feel so bad for doing that but i just sleep in late like schoolies, wait around for a while like i am waiting for the other girls to get up, then realise they are not here then each my breakfast/lunch than...nothing.  I really need to make goals for the day so  do something! so tomorrow I shall clean my room.  I am starting with a seeminly simple subject but it shall mot be! We shall see tomorrow if I get it done or not. 

HIgh School Musial 3 in like 2 days and twilight in 9 YAY!

Ok so in Australia when we want to go to Uni in Queensland we have to fill out a QTAC form right and you have preferences of where you want to go and which course you want and all.  My first preference is for Griffith and today they sent me out this cool letter saying thank-you for putting them as my preference!!! I find this really exciting and was jumping up and down.  It's personalised and everything!!! Oh and it's red my favourite colour, so I think Griffith is the Uni for me and its close to home, even though I hope I won't be living at home for much longer. 

On other news I have 3 assignment due in on friday and have only really started 1, so I am screwed on account that I have to work tomorow night, only til 8:45 but still I'm screwed.  I think I might stay up late tonight.  The thing is I do eveything but my assignments, it's really bad but I at least have to do my accounting. 

Only 5 days till I go down to the High School Musical 3 premiere in Sydney! I am so excited, it is the first time that I am going to go to Sydney so that is super cool by iself but also the chance of seeing and getting an autograph fom Ashley, I think I will faint! I have it all organised I am wearing my home made HSM shirt, which I am making on Saturday or Sunday, I am buying the temporary tattos on Saturday with Hannah.  Ashley shall sign my Ipod because I said one day when I got it signed by Ricki-lee(Australian Singer) that one day that her signature shall be replaced by Ashley's and this is my chance to do it.  Finally I might be getting a HSM cap from Bst and Less cause they are on sle for like $10 which is pretty good for Australia. 

Where am I getting the money for this? Well I found out that I have $120 I am doing nothing with at the moment, well I have to pay for the train tickets in Sydney which is about $30, which is a ridiculous price but tomorow moring I am getting paid again, on;y about $50 cause I skipped out on a shift last week but still, I think I am going to buy a new phone, or something. 

I thought I had lost Hannah in 3rd break today, so I went around yelling out 'HP' my nickname for her and I still couldn't find her so I asked our year 11 friends but still no so I went to class and she was still not there.  So in turn I made up a story that she got expelled cause she ran over the headmaster with the headmasters car, no one believed me.  Hannah is too much of a goody too shes apparently.  Anyways Than she FINALLY turned up! I was a bit high on nervous energy cause well I didn't know where my HP was, so that class was fun cause I did nothing in the end except read her Jeath story.   Oh but Mrs G gave me this awesome pen with a cool grip and it lights up! So cool I was showing everyone on the bus!

Anyways I should be going assignments to do and everything. 

Found this on a website and couldn't not post it.  I found it quite funny, don't know why exactly.  ENJOY!

Sarah Palin once beat a moose to death with its own beating heart.
Sarah Palin doesn’t know what the Bush Doctrine is because Sarah Palin is the Bush Doctrine.
It is well known that Sarah Palin’s longest political experience is as mayor of Wasilla, Alaska, which had 6,300 residents at the time - but what’s less well known is that each resident is made of the souls of a thousand Alaskans, who each devoured ten more. This fact was omitted as it didn’t play well to the hockey mom demographic.
Sarah Palin has, in fact, applied lipstick to a pit bull.
Alaska is supplied with fossil fuels through Sarah Palin’s relationship with Santa.
Sarah Palin was exposed to gamma radiation, and you wouldn’t like her when she’s angry.
Sarah Palin taught John McCain to moonwalk.
Sarah Palin’s pets are made of guns.
Sarah Palin’s heart is made of ice and must be kept refridgerated.
Sarah Palin believes in dinosaurs; it was she who made them extinct.
Sarah Palin can see Russia from the window of the ten thousand foot revolving nuclear bombard tower she makes her home.
Sarah Palin intends to drill for oil on the moon.
Although Sarah Palin has only left North America once physically, she has travelled the world via mind-link.
Sarah Palin maintains a bipartisan relationship with all the animals. This involves guns.
Sarah Palin can align her molecules to become any material she chooses.
Sarah Palin can see through time.
Sarah Palin has the most incredible collection of hand-painted sandles.
Sarah Palin is an elaborate joke.
Sarah Palin has to be careful not to touch water or she’ll turn into a mermaid, which is impractical in most of Alaska.
Sarah Palin is a dab hand with a scythe.
Sarah Palin taught John McCain to set the table properly.
Sarah Palin has a huge moustache, but chooses to grow it at the back of her head.
Sarah Palin’s bottom makes small trumpeting noises as she sleeps.
Sarah Palin prefers spoon-playing to violins.
Sarah Palin is preparing to lay her magnum opus.
Sarah Palin features as an easter egg on the Criterion Collection DVD of Mishima: A Life in Four Chapters.
Sarah Palin once held an opponent’s wife’s hand in a jar of acid … at a party.
Sarah Palin is an expert throat singer, but stopped performing because her music kept being interpreted as policy.
Sarah Palin is your father.
Sarah Palin was designed in a clean room by Jonathan Ive, and makes a satisfying noise when rebooted.
Sarah Palin lives her life through a combination of the principles outlined in Sun Tzu’s The Art of War and Luke Rhinehart’s The Dice Man.
Sarah Palin cheats at Tetris.
Sarah Palin would like you to smoke her a kipper; she’ll be back for breakfast.
Sarah Palin has been made aware of the final resting place of the Holy Grail, and plans on heading to the Louvre to claim it for America.
Sarah Palin knows High School Musical off by heart, but chooses to exclude the sequels from canon.
Sarah Palin was created in the forties using a super serum, and was later recovered from suspended animation by a ragtag group of superheroes.
Sarah Palin does not believe in rock and roll.
Sarah Palin’s chest hair cures cancer.
In the right light, Sarah Palin resembles Senor Peeg.
Sarah Palin is a devout believer in Yogic principles.
Sarah Palin taught John McCain to speak Inuit.
Sarah Palin is friends with a hilarious set of anthropomorphised inanimate objects who help her out with common tasks around her home.
Sarah Palin rebelled. She evolved. She looks and feels human. She is programmed to think she is human. She has many copies. And she has a plan.
Sarah Palin has a trademark dance.
Sarah Palin invented Jupiter. As in, the god.
Sarah Palin can contort herself into the shape of an American eagle.
Sarah Palin has a double jointed left elbow, which she uses to steal food from unwitting guests at parties.
Sarah Palin taught John McCain to produce energy through cold fusion.
Sarah Palin’s foreign policy chops were cut watching episodes of Alias, and intends to make Marshall Flinkman part of any administration.
Sarah Palin predicted the collapse of the subprime mortgage market mere hours after it had actually happened.
Sarah Palin looks tired because she hasn’t slept since 1732.
Sarah Palin enjoys whipping moose.
Sarah Palin’s webbed feet allow her to maneuvre easily underwater.
Sarah Palin has the moral strength of a hundred Ronald Reagans, or ten thousand George W Bushes.
Sarah Palin delights in chasing bees.
Sarah Palin is Mandarin for “life”.
Sarah Palin taught John McCain to love.
Sarah Palin can connect to the hearts and minds of voters via Bluetooth.
Sarah Palin survives on microbes carried by the air.
Sarah Palin is a credible Vice President.

QCS tomorrow and I think I am kinda freaking out.  I am snapping at my family alot tonight.  I just want to relax, plus my folks are having a tiff about something as well. 

I got yelled at for talking to brother about changing schools.  Mum went rank! I just don't see the point in him going to a private school, mum and dad are wasting there money! and we apparently don't have any to start off with! He is failing half his subjects, the one he aced in primary school he gets a c in now.  The school has tried to help him many times but he never takes them up/follows through with it.  He has done 1 english assignment all year! There is no point sending someone to private school, if they are not going to do anything with the better education! So why do it? it makes no sence. 
So than mum said that I don't want him to go to canterbury because I've had my time already and don't give a stuff about him! But I do, I think he will enjoy public school better! So I am annoyed at mom. 

so going to bed now, because I have to be refreshed for tomorrow!

So this weekend, my folks went on a wine tour in Stanthore, so I was in charge at home! Oh the power!

First off I had School softball.  I really love my team, we are so cool! It's hard for us cause Canterbury has always been he school to beat because for the last...5 years we have had a state pitcher, pitching for us.  This year, no state pitcher! So now we actually have to work! Anyways, we won on Saturday, which was really cool, our 3rd game 2nd win, so we are going good.  The team that beat us, is the team we are verseing next saturday.  Only problem, we only had 8 players until a grade 8 girl came to help us out. 

I didn't play too well, I missed 3 ballsand got out bating, because I was stupid and wasn't watching the ball properly but hey nothing I can do about it now. 

Than I had my club softball break up.  It was actually really fun! I forget how much I love my little computer nerds! I tried to understand there conversation about computers and games but didn't get to far with that.  Scott is like a little brother to me, in grade 4 or 5 his dadwas my teacher and I would have to pick him up from pre-school (cause I was the brightest kid in the class, what happened!) and it was cool.  Tom Tom started softball the same year as me and is just the nicest kid around! Knows eveything to do with computers as well, he's the one that had cancer, now he has a bald patch that he calls his 'sexy patch' ! Only problame with that kid is that he goes to JPC.  Oh and Jono aka Jelly, really nice as well, cracks you up all the time! He straightened his hair for the even as well! ( I think he's gay but he does have a girlfriend a the moment but that means nothing).  So yeah they are the really nice ones and I really like those guys!

Oh and Aaron turned up late, hes really cool! we were in the same clas from grade4 to 7.  He is really quite but when you get to know him, he is quite cocky but in the funny way.  He's a really good softballer and he's super smart, he goes to that 'Queensland Acadamy' school or something.  Oh and his hair is long than mine (we checked on the weekend) and its curl and cool and totally awesome and I want it! He umpires with me alot as well.  I'm probably closest to him in the team, so we hang out alot, which is cool. 

I was ment to go into the city with Hannah and Aimee but by the time the guys were full and we did the trophies, it was like 3 so I couldn't.  Oh that remindes me I got the Fielder award, I had nearly perfect stats apparently but I think it's becuase of Elaine but whatever! Oh and Aaron got the batting the award.  It has been like that for the past 3 years!

Today I got to umpire a 3 man! I love them and it was with Oscar and Trish, which is cool.  Oh and Vicki came as well! we had so much fun!!! Everybody asks us how much sugar we have had! and we are loud and, jsut so much fun! We have a reputation! We are going tp be playing on them same team next year as well!

So that was my weekend!

Poeple can be really stupid sometimes and worry about the most stupid things and... I'm just really annoyed and it is bugging me, so yeah

OMG! I just got back from Grocery shopping with dad, right and the checkout girl, was SO slow! Seriously she was dumb and think and really slow.  First off we have double the amount of bags we usually have because she only half fulled them! Talk about trying to save the planet and she gives us trucks loads! Then with all these extra bags, she doesn't bag the milk and Cordial! we had to ask her to bag them! Then the separater things were on the conveyer belt, over the sensor and instead of moving it, she kept reaching half way down the conveyer belt! Also when she was ruinning low on bags, she didn't ask for more until she had 1 left!?!?!?

So Shopping was interesting but anyways!

I didn't have school today, had an astma attack on the way, it's cause of the weather, it happened in Tassie too but it's managable.  I had a 2 more during the day, it sucked.  I really like breathing I found out, it's really cool and it takes alot of mussels to breathe! But I should be good tomorrow, hopefully, i have an excursion!

Mum dragged me along to formal dress shopping! again! that was where I had my 2nd astma attack because of the cold!

Anyways have to go for now Dad is making me get off

I did it on Hannah's LJ and it told me to put it here, so here it is!

<i>1. Name:</i>
<i>2. Birthday:</i>
<i>3. Where do you live:</i>
<i>4: What are you studying/What are you working as:</i>
<i>5. What makes you happy:</i>
<i>6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:</i>
<i>7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:</i>
<i>8. An interesting fact about you:</i>
<i>9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:</i>
<i>10. Favourite place to be:</i>
<i>11. Favourite lyric:</i>
<i>12. Best time of the year:</i>
<i>13. Weirdest food you like:</i>

RECOMMEND
<i>1. A film:</i>
<i>2. A book:</i>
<i>3. A song:</i>
<i>4: A band:</i>

FANDOM
<i>1. Favorite Fandom:</i>
<i>2. OTP/OT3:</i>
<i>3. Icon/Fic Journal (so I can join):</i>

PLUS
<i>1. One thing you like about me:</i>
<i>2. Two things you like about yourself:</i>
<i>3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you.</i>

Ok just came home from seeing Kung Fu Panda and it was AWESOME! I was laughing within the first minute! and Jack Black is love.  So cute, the whole way through! And there was no cheesey ending give you some message or a moral, although here was some throughout the movie it was disgiused well with humour, but the thing is that the ending, was pure humour, no message, which was great!

Cause we all no that Happy Feet was ok until the last 15 minutes, when they started hounding, that animal saftey stuff at you, or whatever.  Not saying that it is not important, it is but that is not why I watch a movie, it is so I can a good time, which I did tonight!

Best line was when Po dad was like 'I have to tell you something, its time you know"
Po-'Yeah Dad"
Po's Dad-'The secret ingriedent in the secret noddle soup...'
Cracked me up, love it! 

I just love Jack Black really, he is awesome!

Anyways must be going just had to tell you how awesome the movie was!

Love Catie

So I had the day off school, told mum I had the runs, I didn't, just didn't want to come to school needed time by myself.  Time to think I guess, I spent basically the whole day in my room apart from when the movie I wanted to watch wouldn't work on the laptop so I had to go to the lounge room but mum wasn't there anyways, than back to my room.  Than I had to go to stevens room because I wanted to watch YouTube videos but apparently my sound card isn't working in my computer.  So the most time I have spent with someone today is about an hour while watching home and away with mum but I didn't talk to her.  

I thought alot today, about so many things.  I feel like I'm in a rut and I know that saying that at my age is stupid but it is true.  It's always the same.  I leave my assignments to the night before, I don't do homework.  So much shit happens at home that I just don't want to think about the hard things, so I don't but it just piles up on you and I don't know what to do with it.  I let down so many people everyday, mum, dad, Hannah, Nadia and they mean so much to me but I keep doing it and I don't know how to stop it.  

I don't have any goals in life because I just don't see myself getting out of this rut.  Oh except my Nadia ones but I don't even know if I want that.  It just seems so hard do stuff, exspecially at my house cause there is so much going on with my folks at each others throats cause mom keeps spending money and we have none cause we could barely afford for me to go to Canterbury but now with steven too, than dad tries to get to mum through me so I know basically every problem we are having as a fmily and I really don't want to know cause it's just more things I worry about but don't want to so I push it aside but it's still their and always on my mind.  Than theres the other problem that I can't talk about at all that I try to fix but it so big that I don't know where to start and I can see it everyday but don't know where to start and of course it is my fault that it happened.  

It seems like I am suppose to be this type of person who can do so much and is so positive on life and be the life of the party and everything but I don't know how much longer I can play along for because things I really want to do aren't the ones that I am suppose to do first and I have no drive to do those things, I don't want to do them but I have too.  But it seems impossible to really get it done until my other problem is fixed but it won't be fixed cause I can't do it by myself.  

I need to get organised but it just seems so hard.

I am sick and I really don't like it for many reasons, 1) I have to stay at home, and no there is nothing wrong with home but it was just a long weekend and I really want to get out of the house, 2) It means I don't get to see people like hannah and eden and Ellie and Amiee and all the cool teachers at school! 3) hannah got a hair cut and I wanna see it! 4) home is really boring 5)cause I'm sick I can't see Nadia, and I didn't get to see her on Saturday! What am I going to do I have 5 reasons why it sucks! Oh yeah and cause I am sick that sucks too, you know the actually sickness!

I got it like friday I think, and it is just getting worse! but i'm good now cause I all drugged up! and have these throat lollie things that antesptic in them so I can't feel my throat! Which is good cause it hurt like big time and when I say big time I mean it hurs so much I am keeping myself from talking to a minimal! The self control is so hard to deal with! and than the fever and the blocked nose that also runs, so I can't breathe out of my nose and than my astma decides to play up so I can barley breathe out of my mouth than there is the dissiness and the headache, of yeah my throat feels swollen.  and lastly I am sleeping for about 16 hours a day, which is more than double what I usually sleep!

I feel so bad that yesterday when someone asked me a question, that I had to think about any little bit, or accussed me of the littlest of thinkgs, I started crying, cause it just could proccess in my brain! That was one of the reasons I didn't come to school, cause I probably would have strated crying for no reason if I got aked a question.  I really hate being sick. 

My brother tried to convince my folks that I gave him whatever I have but didn't it didn't work!

Do you know why it got so bad but? No

I think it was because I went into the pool for like an hour Saturday morning, but really bacuase I umpired 2 games of softball and played my own, it really took it ou of me cause I was already sick and by the time I had finished I couldn't wait to just roll up in bed and go to sleep!

You know what else? I can feel the germs in my throat, when the anestetic wears of, and I hate it!

 I had a scare yesterday! I thought Ashley and JAred broke up but they haven't so everything is cool!

Ok I'm going now to make myself some noodles and than sleep!

I am pissed at my family at the moment! Why do we even have family? they always let you down but for some reason we let them do that and forgive them because "their family" well it's stupid! The aresoo...I can't even express how I feel!

You see Steven went MIA today, he didn't get off the bus. so we had know idea where he was, so mum rung and asked me if he was at school, right.  So I had to miss some of band which I do love even though I bitch about it all the time.  

Anyways so the folks are trying to find the pathetic thing called my brother, which I don't mind but we have 2 parents and 2 cars so their is always one parent and car with each child, so yeah mom go find steven and dad come get me, bbut no both of them look for him! and I was sitting at school, by myself, with no jumper till 6:15!

Now that might not seem so bad but my parents know about my fear of being alone by myself, not knowing when someone is coming to get me! I was crying but stopped before Dad finally came.  

Than I get home and does Steven even say sorry for making you stay at school, so late! No he barely talks to me!

So I am giving my whole family the cold shoulder, screw family, they will always fail and not think of it as a big deal but with friends they care if they stuff up and try not too!

Dad is going to come to me soon and tell me to say sorry to mum for giving her the cold shoulder "she really doesn't like it when you act lke this, her depression and all" thats what he'll say, well I don't give a dam, I have only ever had a mother with depression, I don't eveb know what it's like to have a normal mother.  It is so hard and they don't even get it! I want a normal mother for once, one that doesn't regret her kids half the time!

Oh and the whole depression thing is my fault apparently, because she had that post-pardum depression or whatever its called when I was bored and never really got over it! Why did my parents have to tell me that ! HUH! no reason! no fucking reason!

Wonder why I am happy all the time, its in spite of her! I am going to be such a better person than she ever will be! because I know how hard it is and I don't want anyone going through that! I won't let it happen! 

Why can't I be normal? Why can't I have a normal family? Why does everything come down to me? WHY? cause I am so far over it! and they don't even realise cause my folks don't even know the real me! They think they do and thats good enough for them so they leave it at that!

Ok I LOVE Mrs Brugman officially now! See said that my practice QCS witting task, would have probably gotten a 2, yes that is right people a 2 which is the second higest grade! Go me! and that was my first practice! So I can only improve, right? The QCS doesn't seem so bad anymore I know that I will have to work really hard on it but still, I didn't think I could write that well!

My party is on Saturday night! than I am going to Hannah's so that Jacqui and I can sleepover and than go into the city! WOOT WOOT!

I really need to start learning my Music performance better and my Music Extension but meh, I hope to know my Music Extension over the holidays.  

I have a craving for Kid Nation at the moment, Hannah you have corupt me!

Alexander, Little Patty and me have struck a deal! For every Starwars movie I watch, they will watch a Disney DVD and if I watch all 6 Starwars, they have to come see HSM3 with me at the cinemas!  I love those guys, there like my little brothers! And Patty always stabds up for me! He is so cute! and he is really smart!

37 days till HSM on ice, which has merchandise!

28 days till Hannah's birthday!

On the subject of hannah, I hope your feeling better! you really didn't look good at the beginning of 3rd break but by the end you seemed better.  That might have been because of Miss Cowans impersonations with the chicos but.  They were classic! 'I am Mr Ballum Cross, put your hat on!" Oh I love it! I think it's really cool that she speaks to her grandma like 6 times a day! I wish me and my gran were like that!

You know she deserves a man that worships the ground she walks on, and loves her so much! She is such a special person! and she deserves the best, like hugsey, except he already has his best, Ian! They are really cute!

Anyways must be going

Love ya